do you remember a time where you didn’t hate the beautiful mind of yours? do you remember a time your skin was porcelain and not under your nails. SCRATCH. do you remember a time where you were all yours? TWITCH. do you remember a time when you once thought you weren’t scared of your own reflection? PULL. do you remember a time when you weren’t tired? body, mind soul. everything just was so heavy and you were so weak.
she didn’t even want to lift her her head. she didn’t want to see their look of pity. SHE might come, offended by the look a mere mortal would give to her–a goddess. and she was not merciful. she was never merciful. ❝ i’ll be fine. ❞ a shaky response as she clenched her brown locks. she used to have more, she used to have beautiful brown locks that bounced when she walked. but now–they stuck to her face, lifeless and bland. ❝ –fine. ❞ she repeated weakly before her eyes shut tightly. her body coiling up in pain. ❝ please–i’ll be good. please stop! ❞
SHE SHOULD REALLY GO BACK. he’ll be angry if she doesn’t, she knows that. he won’t forgive you and then he will leave you and you will be all ALONE. she should know better than to let them talk to her. she should —- she should leave, for all she cares, but it is three in the morning, and this girl is alone. NOBODY LIKES TO BE ALONE. scarlett knows this better than most. she has always known this ( then why did you leave to be alone? STUPID. ) ❛ you WON’T be fine. you’ll be raped and murdered. this isn’t MANHATTAN, innit? ❜
how long has it been since you’ve been outside? he’ll be ANGRY, he’ll punish you. she takes in a deep breath, biting the inside of her cheeks. perhaps she ought to go home. perhaps that will be for the best. she won’t have to think of the girl ever again. SHE TRIED TO HELP HER. she did her part. ❛ wha’ ever. ❜ her feet are killing her, anyway, and the sooner she gets back the lesser her punishment will be. SHE OUGHT TO GO BACK. she’s turning around when she hears it. it is all too FAMILIAR ( i’ll be good, i’ll be good, please please please ). her heart is racing against her chest, LOUD & CLEAR & FILLED WITH LAUGHTER that are not her own. ❛ who are you talking to? ❜